溫度日記
Hearty Journal

Pray.
I haven't prayed in years, and if you ask me why, i'm just tired of believing in things that won't favor in my ways. it's heartbreaking to think that dreams never come true, that luck never align with my days. i found it heart wrenching that universe can't be at my side even just once and failure has become familiar to me. i'd always settle for almost and maybe because i can't rely on the word hope anymore and it made me afraid of trying new things. but then there's you. somehow, you're everything i've ever hoped for, without ever really hoping much, it seems as thought fate moved silently, without a hint or a clue, to place you in my path. You are the suprise that brightens a dull day, the calm in the midst of turmoil, the burst of laughter that cuts through a moment to grave. You are the unexpected act of generosity i didn't realize i was seeking, the courage i discovered when i thought i was defeated. In all ways that count, you are the solution to riddles i hadn't even contemplated. you are like flowers, you rose upon my life and introduced the things i don't usually do. For you, i would do anything just for you. Every night i start to talk to him to take care of you when i'm not around, to help you and guide you when things go hard, to let you think of me in dull days. Suddenly, because of you i found myself smiling everyday, i found myself breathing again, i found myself trusting him again, and most of all, i found myself believing in love because of you. And I don't usually partake in religious acts, but in every smile, every gesture, every word you've shared with me, i find something profound, something almost holy. You are my answered prayers, in the most human, most beautiful sense of the world.

溫度日記 Hearty Journal