Random Nights

A Random Day Nights
( i hope you can read a lot, take your time. ) A Random Days On a random Saturday night. i was scrolling on my tiktok fyp and then suddenly your vid appears. i close the app right away and i thought of you. Well this isn't the first times that i thought about you. i thought about that reaching you now, for this time. i've been admiring you from afar since then but i haven't reach you because you are too high to notice someone like me. but then this random night, i think of it that how would i even sure if i don't even try? so i did. On a random Saturday night, i thought of confessing to you properly soon enough if you notice me. i like you very much. i have a crush on you since then. i know nowadays Love seems a joke to everyone but my intentions to you are pure and genuine. i wanna come to your life not to hurt you but to love you the way you deserve and you wanted. i'd rather die than to ruin your life. but the question is Do i feel need to reciprocate my feelings? No. i don't expect you to reciprocate my feelings, for now i want you to let me and i'll let you to get to know me and we will know what will happen next. On a random Saturday night, i thought of pursuing you, this is it. i will try and prove. i thought of very long time to take care of you, i thought of loving you, even. Love is a deep feeling and i'm not sure how my feelings for you are that deep, but if ever they sink more this time, will you let me love and pursue you? On a random Thought bubble i have, i hate to admit that i am one of the people who has a crush on you. No, i do not hate that i like you. i hate the fact that i have so many competitors. but then again, i don't blame them, i am jealous of them but i have no karapatan but still i'm willing to go to war just to prove myself for you. On a random Wednesday night, the things you've shared, i saw how fragile you are. i can see that you love genuinely but people in your world aren't appriciating you. i hate that and i want to hold you gently as i can and give you hug knowing how people treat you bad, you don't deserve that. On a random Wednesday night, i can tell how traumatized you are for the people that brings you nothing but pain but you just chose to be cool with it. it made me hate the people who are responsible for it, more than i could ever hate them even though i don't know them but still, You did not deserve any of what they did. i understand what you've been through. i understand that you have a very deep wound and you are trying to protect it. i hope you take all the time you need to heal from the past. i'll be rooting for your healing, i wanna be with you in your healing stage or what because you deserve to be seen, to be heard, and to be care for. Keshi. i'll be here by your side even you don't want to. On a random Thursday night, i dedicate a song, Mac Demarco; 20191009 i Like Her to you. & Bruno Major; The Most Beautiful Thing. i hope you listen to these two for a while after you read this hehe. (just swipe it or click the book icon. ) You are one of the reason why the world is beautiful, Why? because you Exist. : ) - Sincerly, Xiao

Random Nights