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其實逃避對於我來講我係幾抗拒的,其實我係一d有事就唔好怕事嘅人,我覺得可能淨係呢一方面你係會咁,原來見家長呢一方面你係有咁大嘅恐懼,你唔講我都唔發覺原來你叫個侍應都唔係好想,不過你唔使驚我會唔鍾意你呢樣野,我強調我愛你係我同你之間嘅事,其他嘢有我喺度就可以了。我唔要求你要點樣氹到我屋企人好鍾意你定點,只不過係好簡單好基本嘅溝通就可以㗎啦,我阿媽都係過來人佢真係唔想你會好似佢同我阿嫲咁樣,我希望我可以幫到你。
其實你一直比我感覺真係好積極進取嘅人,我知道你做其他嘢5會比咁多藉口自己去逃避的。其實我再次理解到兩個一齊真係需要進步的,如果雙方都停滯不前嘅話其實真係好難行。依家呢一刻係你樓下等緊你等緊車你返工,我覺得就係咁樣咁平淡嘅生活已經足夠了,希望我地可以一直都系咁久處不累吧。